When the Going Gets Tough...
By Jeany Miller More Blogs by This AuthorFrom the Diary of a Fat Woman Blog Series
The Same Ol' Junk
Let me begin by saying I’m afraid I’ve over-romanticized the idea of healthy eating. Granted, it sounds glamorous in theory… consuming leafy greens and creamy yogurt instead of potato chips and cookies, the forgoing of soda for water, and trading boxes of processed food for fruits and vegetables. Unfortunately, this glamor is short-lived, at least for someone like me.
You’ve probably already guessed, but my quest to give up all junk food in favor of healthier options hasn’t exactly panned out. In my head, it all makes perfect sense: a green smoothie for breakfast, soup and yogurt for lunch, and chicken with vegetables for supper. Sounds easy and healthy, right? But when the time comes to make these bland (at least in my opinion) meals, my taste buds rebel. I want all that same junk I’ve always wanted.
A friend of mine who started a strict diet told me that she gets through the dull meals by reminding herself, “It’s all worth it.” And she’s right; eating whole foods brings better health coupled with weight loss. The trade-off doesn’t get any more positive than that, so it seems that there shouldn't be any question as to which lifestyle anyone would choose.
But I don’t want whole foods, which must mean I’m a glutton for punishment.
Curves or Bust
So, the healthy eating stint is not completely obliterated, but it’s not going perfectly smooth either. I suppose that’s to be expected; it took me 34 years to achieve the eating habits I currently have, and they aren’t going to be undone in a matter of one or two weeks. On a brighter note, I did go back to Curves this week. It was tough; I dreaded walking into that facility, and I dreaded getting back on the workout machines. But I did it.
It’s been more than two months since I completed a workout circuit there, and the one I completed this week wasn't stellar, but it was better than nothing, and I felt good when I left. I still don’t like the Curves' attitude or approach, but their machines provide a great workout. So, in addition to making the effort to eat the foods I know I should, I'll also be pushing myself to get back into Curves at least twice a week, preferably three times.
And I’m walking. I walk my dog several times a day and walk around my apartment complex at least once a day. I also go walking at the local state park, in the wilderness park, and other places, just to be physically active. I’ve thought about running, but I’m just not ready. I also play basketball at least once a week as another way of getting off the couch. I don’t think I’ve lost even so much as a pound, but I feel good getting out there and trying.
The truth is that it’s easy to be overweight. Not to say the jibes and snide looks from others are easy to take, but that it’s easy to just hide from the world, stay in your home, and sit around watching life go by. It’s also easy to stuff your face with food, especially when life gets tough. Comfort eating offers just what the word implies: comfort. A full belly while relaxing in front of the television is nice and easy, but forcing yourself to make conscientious food decisions and be active is more difficult. Perhaps that’s why the saying “no pain, no gain” exists in the first place: There’s truth to it.