When You Lose Your Parents
At the age of 13, I lost my father to a car accident. He was missing for a month before he was found, and I know that was very difficult for my mother with having 5 of her 6 kids still home. Now as an adult, I feel so bad for not supporting her more through this time - I just didn't understand everything that she went through until I lost her at the end of May to cancer. My mother fought a good fight, she battled cancer for 6 years. She was such an anchor to my family, we went to her for everything.
Every morning I would call her before coming to work, we would talk about the morning and how she was doing, and then - at the end of the call - she would always pray with me. How much I looked forward to that and how I miss it so much! She was my inspiration to always be the best that I can be, to be kind to others, and to treat them with respect. She had so much wisdom, it didn't matter what I was going through in life she was always there. Through the birth of each of my children she was there with me, helping me a couple of weeks before and a week or two after! I was the luckiest and most blessed girl around!
Now that I find myself without her in my life, I find it very difficult. It is just really hard to believe, and I feel like an orphan, alone! I always pray that I can speak to her just one more time! I pray that I'll dream about her just so that I can keep her close to me! I know that one day we will be together again, but, until that time comes, I so long for her fellowship and for her wonderful hugs that everything is going to be o.k.!
I know that I have to just take one day at a time, that is all I can bear.